GIVE IT WINGS,SET IT FREE..IF IT IS MEANT TO BE, IT'LL FLY RIGHT BACK TO YOU

A lot of ideas and experiences from my past came back into my life today, and they caused me to question the choices I've been making lately. This questioning is a good sign, because it shows that I want to improve myself....

BRIAN MCKNIGHT-ONE LAST CRY

My shattered dreams and broken heart
Are mending on the shelf
I saw you holding hands, standing close to someone else
Now I sit all alone wishing all my feeling was gone
I gave my best to you, nothing for me to do
But have one last cry

Chorus:
One last cry, before I leave it all behind
I’ve gotta put you outta my mind this time
Stop living a lie
I guess I’m down to my last cry

Cry......

I was here, you were there
Guess we never could agree
While the sun shines on you
I need some love to rain on me
Still I sit all alone, wishing all my feeling was gone
Gotta get over you, nothing for me to do
But have one last cry

One last cry, before I leave it all behind
I’ve gotta put you outta my mind this time
Stop living a lie
I know I gotta be strong
Cause round me life goes on and on and on
And on.....

I’m gonna dry my eyes
Right after I had my
One last cry

One last cry, before I leave it all behind
I’ve gotta put you outta my mind for the very last time
Been living a lie
I guess I’m down
I guess I’m down
I guess I’m down...
To my last cry...

What is it in life that i see,for which i couldnt be.
That in reality,somethings are never meant to be.

Give me strength to move on.. i really need a 'life' right now.. there is no more hope in waiting nor hoping.. just let me give it off quick as soon as possible...get it off my head..that i wont mind see-ing you ever again with someone else...

GOD, i pray , keep me strong by each day,
GOD, i pray , rid me out of this tormented mind, to realise what was never mine.
GOD, let me see, what is really for me.
GOD, keep me strong, GOD, i really need to move on.

Things I would do for love.. I was once told that love is sacrifise..love is to give whatever that is best for someone even if it meant losing them..
nothing last forever thou i wanted to
the road ahead holds different dreams for me and you...
and sometimes goodbye thou it hurts in my heart i know its the only way for destiny..
and sometimes goodbye thou it hurts in my heart is the only way for you and me
thou its the hardest thing to say...i'll miss your love in every way
so...lets just say 'goodbye' but dont anyone cry nomore..
cos i true love never dies.....

I Know you dont love me anymore, so why am i even trying? WHY am i still holding onto something that never cease to exist again? WHY is it that everytime I was so close to 'moving on', i keep looking back? WHY is it that everytime i try so hard to get you off my mind, you never seem to go away? WHY does your smile and presence still plays an important part in me? WHY can't I just let you go? WHY is it that I still care for you more than i should? and the hardest part is that WHY am i STILL LOVING YOU WHEN YOU DONT ANYMORE? WHY is the past memories playing in my head wherever I taught of you? I WANTED SO BADLY TO JUST FORGET IT BUT I CANT..i just cant..i really want to make it go... but i keep loving you alittle more than i should...I was told that time would be the only element i need to help me forget but to me, time can never make me forget...it will only make me stronger.. stronger to realise how cruel realities can get ....and yet it doesnt mean i dont love you anymore.. please forgive me...i cant stop loving you..
WITH every breath i pray, that is why i am saying this.. please forgive me..i cant stop loving you..please dont deny the pain i'm going through.cos three words i whisper is true...
How have i gotten myself into you so deep??
WHY is it that you've move on 'easily' with me left behind?
How is it that you 'showed' love and say it isnt?
I never want to hurt you.. i really wish i could fake a smile ..to the world and most importantly to you..but everytime i do so, my heart breaks my heart aches..till the extend it physically hurts...
I can never let you see the 'real' me..not anymore.. i remember those unconditional love and support you've showered me..and now its only fair i return it..
I try to hide my feelings..i try to keep it with me..to not let it affect you in a way or another..
I know I'm not what I used to be anymore because it hurts..it hurts because you took your love away from me...it hurts knowing that i still love you and that no matter what I do, you'll never come back to me again..it pains me knowing that I may see you walking with someone else other than me....I PAINS ME THE MOST KNOWING THAT I LOVE YOU MORE FOR WHAT HAD HAPPEN...
Things never really had gotten this far for my previous cases..yes i had been obssesed with many...i had went crazy for many before you..but you were the one who took me out from 'hell' and brought me to 'heaven'.. and now..what i feel is worst that 'hell' itself..

why am i still holding onto the day when you will finally come back to me? Are all this just reasons for myself to stop myself from moving on? If so, why am i dying inside to 'let go' and still fail to do so?

Nobody Knows it But me - BabyFace

I pretended I'm glad you went away
These four walls closin' more every day
And I'm dying inside
And nobody knows it but me

Like a clown I put on a show
The pain is real even if nobody knows
Now I'm cryin' inside
And nobody knows it but me

Why didn't I say
The things I needed to say
How could I let my angel get away
Now my world is just a-tumblin' down
I can see it so clearly
But you're nowhere around

The nights are lonely
The days are so sad
And I just keep thinkin' about
The love that we had
And I'm missin' you
And nobody knows it but me

I carry a smile when I'm broken in two
Now I'm nobody without someone like you
I'm tremblin' inside, and nobody knows it but me
I lie awake, its a quarter past three
I'm screamin' at night
As if I thought you'd hear me
Yeah my heart is callin' you
And nobody knows it but me

How blue can I get
You could ask my heart
But like a jigsaw puzzle its been torn all apart
A million words couldn't say just how I feel
A million years from now you know I'll be lovin' you still

The nights are lonely
The days are so sad
And I just keep thinkin' about
The love that we had
And I'm missin' you
And nobody knows it but me

Tomorrow mornin' I'm hittin' the dusty road
Gonna find you wherever, ever you might go
I'm gonna unload my heart
And hope you come back to me
Said when the nights are lonely...